I stayed.

I stayed on the side of the street, waiting for him to come back, running toward me, wagging his tail cheerfully like usual.

And I stayed a little bit more.

And I stayed.
And I stayed.
And I stayed.

And I stayed and the empty street stayed and waited with me.

And I stayed, patiently, kindly.

Until they told me, "He's not coming back this time."

Then I, too, left.

he moved on.

And I will too.
I'm sure I will.
I promise I will.But not tonight.
Tonight I just want to curl up and sleep with my eyes open. Not tomorrow.
Tomorrow they predict heavy rain and forgetting is easier when it's warm. Not next week.
My friends are coming; they will ask if I'm fine and I don't want to lie.Not next month.
Next month and today are only separated by a pause and a breath, like we no longer are.Not next year.
Or maybe next year or maybe not next year.But I will.
I'm sure I will.
I promise I will. 

Before U,

I was fine,

Standin’ alone,

But I was fine.

Then U arrived.

I was no longer alone;

There were I and U.

There were U and I.

I got lost in U:

U in my head,

U in my life,

Everything was about U.

There were only Us,

U in plural.

U and U.

But slowly,

Us went back to U and I.

And slowly,

U left I was alone again.

Yet before U

There was I.

And before U

I was fine.

And now, without U,

I

Will still be fine.

i see you..
swimming between the pages of my books
invading my thoughts
inhabiting every space i enter
playing trick with my mind
through thongs and crowds,
toying with my sanity
peeking from behind your tombstone
reminding me of what i did last 'summer'

-ST-